peggy

You rushed in;

Took me by surprise

Flooding the dam wall,

Flooding the river banks.

I am letting you wash everything away

Sometimes you are hard like plated glass

and I want to hold your hand,

there is sadness that lies like dull puddles

In the corners of your eyes

Can I stroke your cheek?

I don’t want to be slammed up against you,

You can be so crazy,

driven like a rabid animal

obsessed, blinded, lightning, thunder

full of bravado and puffed up feathers

Sometimes it’s better to move out of your way

I don’t want to cut you,

You have so many scars

So many disappointments

Your child needs shelter, healing

A place to sleep where you can find peace in your dreams;

Undrugged,

Unpassified,

Unconditioned,

Unbrainwashed,

Uncontained.

Yesterday you looked so small

I wanted to envelop you

Wrap my arms around you a thousand times

Each embrace gentle as the flitting wings of a butterfly

blowing freedom through the tips of your fingers like a soft wind

if only I could make your monsters go away.

Sometimes you look so big

strong, clever, determined

No one can hold you back

tough like an elephant bull

sad, you don’t use your own strength to love yourself

You give it away to others,

sell it for cheap.

Leaving yourself the dregs for survival

Sometimes you overwrought with fever

Like there is a devil in you

And you grasp at me

Looking for someone else

Hiding in my kisses,

I don’t  see you in those moments

You aren’t there.

Who are you?

Drop your guard

What are you looking for?

Drop your walls

Stop

Listen

Drop your preconceived notions

Judgements

Drop your past

Be still.

Take my hand

Maybe you can learn to trust me?

Maybe I can learn to trust you.